Chapter 19 – One Shining Moment

Late spring brought about new possibility. Caitlyn was anxious to finish her senior year and move away for college the following fall. With the traumatic events that her family experienced losing the business, she was not able to afford and attend the top school of choice, but she was happy to be leaving town and that was all that mattered. Jason and her would both be attending Central Michigan the following fall. She was grateful that they could remain friends through all of the sadness and terrible events over the past year. Truthfully, she knew she needed him in her life not as a boyfriend, but as a true friend. He was the only one that understood how this event impacted their lives. And, Jason needed her likewise. They often walked to the end of the pier together discussing their plans for the upcoming fall. Caitlyn forgave Jason and his nightmares finally came to an end.

Following Graduation Day Ceremonies, Caitlyn and Jason took one last stroll along the pier to say their final farewell to Grand Haven. They both decided to take summer classes that summer to get a jump start on college. They sat down at the end of the pier and watched as the sun began its final descent over the horizon. Caitlyn bowed her head and whispered a prayer to Steven, she and Jason as time must move forward. As she opened her eyes she caught sight of a shiny object lodged in a sheltered crack alongside the base of the lighthouse. She leaned over to investigate. There in the sheltered darkness of the light she found Steven’s pendant. She reached into the crack of the lighthouse base cement and pulled out the pendent with her tiny hands. She held it close to her heart, looked out at the sun upon the water and began to cry. Her heart sank, she was certain now of the events that took place that fateful night. She folded her hands, sank her face into them and cried over the sad reality of the past year’s events, the loss of her youth and the darkness that exists in the beauty of the light, just as the undertow and undercurrent below is a dark and dreaded reality that attributes to the beauty of the waves above.

As she glanced to her right, looked up and watched in complete curiosity as The USCG Cutter Mackinac made its way through the channel charting its path to open waters for duty to service the great lakes. As she looked up toward the cockpit, a glaring beam of light struck the captain’s window so bright she was forced to look forward toward the bow of the ship. There standing in full uniform alongside the ship’s bell, stood a beautiful young officer glancing back in her direction. The light gleaming from across the lake illuminated his stance creating an apparition-like image; in the likeness of Steven stood there in lighted brilliance. Caitlyn gasped, her hear skipped a beat; and in a moment the image faded away with the sun and ship into the dark blue waters on the distant horizon.

Her heart was still. With the dawn of the day, she stepped over to the edge of the light’s pier. She held Steven’s pendant up to her lips, kissed it and surrendered it to the waters below; returning it to her beloved Steven. The first glow and beam stretched out from the lighthouse as she whispered, “God is near… do not fear… love goodnight.”

Chapter 18 – Dark Secrets Revealed

The following week Adam’s body rested upon shore and funeral services were held. This was the second tragedy for the town this year involving youth drowning on the pier. New safety measures were being implemented as a result and the community was coming together to educate and build awareness of the dangers on the pier.

Following the funeral Adam’s mother asked that Caitlyn come over to the house and go through some of Adams things. She was aware that Adam really cared for Caitlyn and wanted her to go through some of the photos and memorably that Adam adorned his room with over the years. When Caitlyn entered Adam’s room she was greeted with cold chills running down her arms and back. She remembered better days spent with Adam as captured in some of the photographs on his desk and walls; but there was strangeness to Adam’s room too. Something always bothered her about Adam; something that ultimately lead to them breaking up. She couldn’t put a finger on it, it was just a gut feeling and intuition that she felt around him after a while that she couldn’t shake.

As she made her way around the room she browsed over the photographs and memories to find herself standing in front of his closet. There was his varsity jacket hanging there in front of her. She remembered him draping it around her in better times. She took it off from the hanger and held it. While doing so, a strange light caught her eye from the back of the closet. She pulled the light bulb chain to turn on the closet light and explore the light streaming from a crack in the back closet paneling. She pushed on the paneling to reveal a small door to another storage closet behind the main closet. She stepped in and was immediately shocked at what she found. There all around her on four sides of walls in this small closet were photographs of her with Adam, her with Jason, and her with Steven and multiple photos of her studying in her room, walking to class, talking with friends, and sitting on the pier by herself. She gasped! “Oh my. This is terrible! How could I have been so blind!” There all around her was a freaky shrine of sorts of her. On the floor she spotted a black box. She leaned down and opened it. Inside were photographs of Adam with Steven as younger men in middle school. They were best friends, she recalled Adam saying once. She shuffled through the photographs to find more photos of her and Steven. They began getting more and more disturbing. There were photographs of she and Steven kissing, holding hands and having dinner together. It was extremely inappropriate. Adam had been spying on them since the very beginning of their relationship, spying to the point of stalking. It was an awful realization. Caitlyn swallowed slowly completely taken back by what she found. “Oh no, could Adam be responsible for Steven’s death?” She said under breath and began to cry in long deep hard sobs. Her hands were shaking as she thumbed through the photographs of her undressed in her bedroom. She began crying as she held photographs of her and Steven together. The tears fell down her cheeks and she could barely see. The tears were so frequent her vision became blurred as she made her way to the bottom of the box. Then suddenly panic shot through her entire being. Her hands feverishly shook as she lifted the chain that once contained Steven’s pendant. She knew it well, it was one-of-a-kind that she designed herself with the local jeweler. She couldn’t breathe, She was shaking so badly she dropped the box of photos sending them scattered all over the floor as she turned around and ran out of the closet, room and house. They had been broken up for over 10 months, she shouted out, “No! How can this be possible? How could he do something like this? Why, why, why?”

She ran straight to the local authorities and reported what she had seen. She couldn’t believe what was happening. She could not believe that one person could become so disoriented to do something this terrible. She could not believe that the reality of the situation is that Adam was so obsessed with her he could behave like this, and possibly have killed Steven. Things began coming into focus, bad things, her mind was spinning. She thought to herself, “Could Adam have been responsible for her Dad’s business failing? The spec house that he built that was destroyed by fire? The lumber yard being ransacked and robbed?” She felt completely sick as she told the police about the photographs that she saw and the possible implications upon Adam. The most disturbing photographs were those of her in her bedroom studying and changing her clothes; and those of her and Steven kissing and holding each other. Adam was spying on her the entire time, taking pictures of her with his cell phone. She recalled how her computer files had been stolen and her email accounts were hacked. Her identity had been jeopardized and her parent’s credit cards used by perpetrators. “All of these incidents, could the truly have been Adam’s doing?” She questioned everything aloud as she sat there in the police department filing her claims.

She knew in her heart that Steven’s fall and disappearance was no accident. She just knew that Adam must have grabbed his arm and took him with him when Adam tried to push him into the channel. It was a nightmare coming to fruition. She clutched Steven’s chain in her hands and held it to her chest whispering to herself, “Why did Adam have this? Where is my beloved Steven. What does this mean?” She continued to cry.

Caitlyn headed over to see Jason and tell him what she found. Steven sat there in complete shock and silence for a few minutes when he finally spoke up. “Caitlyn, that makes sense. The dreams I’ve been having always involve shouting, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I did recall seeing them fall into the water, and I did hear some of the fighting, but I don’t know exactly what happened. I’m guessing Adam probably fell because Steven grabbed him, sending them both over the ledge. They must have struggled on the pier for a while before falling into the channel as I was trying to get around the lighthouse on the south side over to them on the north side. I only caught the final end when they were both going over into the water. Adam landed on top of Steven over the rocks. That is probably what saved Adam and allowed him to swim to the north shore channel walls.” Jason began tearing up. “I am so sorry Caitlyn. It all happened so fast and it was all so confusing, I must have blocked it out of memory. Really Caitlyn, I never wanted to hurt you, and I especially never wanted anything this terrible to happen.”

Later that evening the police investigated Adam’s room and met again with Caitlyn, Jason and Sami to draw the best conclusion they could based on the evidence and photographs. There was no proof of what Adam’s role was in Steven’s disappearance, but there was definitely foul play and motive based on the evidence of Adam’s stalking and psychoanalysis. The police found copies of all of Caitlyn’s hard drive computer files, emails and passwords. Adam had indeed been stalking her terrible for years actually, including the time they were dating. He was obsessed with her to the point of no turning back. The police collected what they could for evidence and placed the photographs back in the box of her and Steven for her safe keeping.

That evening while sitting in her room she opened the box and began to look at the photographs of Steven. She missed him so much. She sorted the photographs and placed those with Steven in a specially made memory box. As she transferred the photographs into the memory box, she noticed two pictures in particular. One was a photograph of her working in art class on the necklace design, followed immediately by another photograph of Steven up close wearing the pendant. She knew Adam must have been very jealous of the pendant, he was always sentimental about exchanging jewelry with her. He became extremely jealous when she stopped wearing his class ring a year and half prior. She now recalled the signs, jealousy, rage and anger that he displayed even back then. She thought to herself, “Could something that trivial have caused the terrible chain of events that night? Could Adam truly have been so jealous to grab Steven’s pendant and fight with him over me?” She knew that was an all-too-real possibility.

Chapter 17 – Fight or Flight

The following morning the football team boarded the bus and headed out for the state finals game. Adam was sitting towards the back of the bus. Jason spotted him while boarding and decided that now was as good a time as any to talk with him, so he made his way back and sat in the seat across from Adam. Half way into the ride to the stadium, Jason motioned over and asked Adam, “Dude, I need to talk with you about Steven.” Jason was desperate now because he could no longer deal with the visions and nightmares.

Adam glared at Jason and tensed up, “No man. Just leave it alone!” he replied and immediately picked up his gear and walked toward the front of the bus to find another place to sit away from Jason.

While on the field they engaged in another heated argument during the game. Caitlyn and Sami witnessed them pushing and shoving each other between calls. There was some intensity between them. Caitlyn wondered what was going on. Following the game they all returned to Grand Haven and headed in different directions to prepare for various celebratory activities that evening. Caitlyn decided that she would go to dinner with Jason and meet Sami there. She wasn’t going to go to the dance. It was to difficult.

Jason arrived right on time to pick Caitlyn up for dinner and they headed over to the Kirby Grille. When they arrived Sami was sitting at the dinner table next to Adam. It was a familiar setting seeing their close circle of friends in their corner tucked back on the second floor of Kirby. The building was old and adjacent to a game room filled with pool tables. The atmosphere was always pleasant. It was one of their favorite hangouts over these years. Adam glared at Steven when he and Caitlyn arrived. He stood up and purposely ran into Jason hitting him hard on his shoulder as he passed by him presumably heading toward the restroom. “Nice date!” Adam lashes out close to Jason’s ear in passing. Jason gets revved up and spouts off back to Adam,

“She’s not my date. Not yours either! Try to understand that.” Jason then glances back toward Caitlyn, “What a douche bag!”

They make their way through an awkward dinner and the majority of the group leaves to head over to the school dance. Caitlyn tells Jason, “I think I will just walk home, it isn’t that far. Are you okay with that Jason. Thank you for understanding.” She was not happy with Adam’s behavior and the tension between he and Jason. She just wanted to clear her mind and go home to bed.

Jason replied, “No problem Cait, I understand. But, do you think we could talk sometime soon. There are some things that have been really bothering me, it would be nice to talk to someone. If you wouldn’t mind being that someone? Maybe?”

Caitlyn knotted, “Of course Jason. I’ll catch you later.” She bundled up in her scarf and headed out towards home.

“Shit!” Jason shouted under breath as she walked away. He put on his coat and hat and decidedly walked down to the pier. It was really cold out and he could see his breath in the chilling air as he hastily made his way toward the catwalk. He had not been out there since Steven’s disappearance. But, he needed answers, and he needed to clear his mind, so he thought that maybe the walk down the pier would help him.

Once out on the edge of the pier his thoughts begin spinning. He grows dizzy and starts hearing Steven’s voice in his head, “No! Stop it! No!” Jason covered his ears and started turning around in circles trying to make the voices stop. As he turns around in his feverish state of confusion and chaos, he is caught off guard when he sees Caitlyn standing there in the shadow of the lighthouse. He is completely startled as he looks up at her. “Caitlyn, I can’t take it anymore.” He says to her with the look of complete desperation on his face.

“What do you mean Jason?” Caitlyn hastily remarks. “What is it? Is there something you know that you are not telling me about Jason? Please?” Caitlyn begins to grow suspicious of Jason and this behavior. She desperately wants to know what happened out on the pier that night.

“I’ve been having these dreams. Caitlyn, it is crazy but, it is like things are starting to come back to me.” Jason responds to Caitlyn’s plea for any bit of information regarding that night. “Do you remember the bruises on Adams arms? Or the scratches? And his black eye, ripped shirt and jacket? I don’t know what happened on the pier that night, but I keep hearing these voices shouting and fighting in my dreams and head; like there must have been an argument. The shouts are driving me crazy. I can’t sleep, I don’t know what to do anymore. I wish I could remember for certain what happened that night! It was so crazy, and the waves were so loud.” He shook his head while trying to spill his guts out to Caitlyn.

Meanwhile, unknown to either Jason or Caitlyn, Adam had approached the lighthouse and was listening in on their discussion. He stood back in the dark shadows of the light so they wouldn’t know he was there. Adam was complete inebriated at this point. His drug use of painkillers and alcohol abuse was a growing problem, and this night was no exception.

Jason began trying to explain more of his nightmares and visions with Caitlyn, “I thought it was from his fall, but now after the dreams and flashbacks, I think Adam may have fought with Steven. I think he may have pushed him into the water. But I don’t know for sure. I am so sorry Caitlyn.”

Adam in hearing this began to loose his balance, but the waves were splashing and picking up now so it covered up the sound of his slipping stance as he stood near the dark edge of the light.

Caitlyn replied to Jason’s concerns, “I’m sorry too Jason. I wish we all knew what happened that night. We better head back, I don’t like being out here when the waves start getting higher.” They both turned around toward the south side of the lighthouse and made their way back to shore. As they walked away, Adam watched them and then turned toward the front of the lighthouse on the north side. He looked down into the waters below. He was also tormented by that night in October. Just then, a series of waves hit the front of the pier creating an icy layer underfoot. Adam lost his balance and fell hitting his head on the sharp edge of the pier and falling into the water. No one was there to see him fall into the icy waters. All alone, Adam drowned in the dark waters of Lake Michigan that carried him to their depths.

Chapter 16 – A Rude Awaking

That night Jason could not sleep. He was completely overridden with guilt, sadness and regret. He wished so much that he could have controlled Steven falling into the water. He was so mad at himself that he could not remember things clearly because he was to drunk that night. It weighed so heavy on his mind and heart.

Jason began having nightmares and flashbacks immediately following the night of the accident. He was very intoxicated and it all seemed like a terrible story out of tragic movie drama. His nightmares grew worse as the days passed. They became so intense that he began seeing a psychologist for sleep deprivation and anxiety attacks.

That night was no exception to the severity of his dreams. Jason dreamed he was there on the edge of the pier again looking down at the rocks beneath the icy waters. He woke in complete panic to the sight of Steven’s eyes opening up and looking fiercely at him as Steven’s face and body floated up to the surface of the waters below him on the pier. The visions were becoming more severe with each nightmare. Jason curled into a ball at the head of his bed in complete shock. He could not understand why he was having these dreams. He began to think that maybe he was going crazy. He was afraid to know what these dreams had to do with Steven’s disappearance and death. The notion that he may have had something to do with his death frightened him beyond belief. He was so drunk that night, he blacked out and blocked out any memories. Now it seemed like the memories would not let him rest any longer. The nightmares and flashbacks became increasingly realistic as time passed.

Jason quickly got up and ran to the bathroom to take two more sleeping pills. He was concerned about not being able to sleep because tomorrow was the state final championship game. He knew he needed to rest and he hoped the sleeping pills would help him fall asleep. He returned back to bed and dosed off again, this time to wake to a more frightening revelation.

Jason dreamed he was standing along the end of the pier with Steven when they began to struggle and fight with each other. He could hear Steven yelling at him to stop. The last detail he recalled from the dream was that of Steven being pushed over the edge of the pier into the water, yelling out, “No!” and then falling onto the cold waters and rocks below. Jason awoke in complete horror. He cradled his head into his hands and wept in panic.

He yelled out, “No, this isn’t possible. This cannot be happening! GET A GRIP!” He began rocking his body on the bed in a back and fourth direction, “What is happening to me!” He almost stopped breathing thinking to himself, “Could I have pushed Steven from the pier? No, it isn’t possible. It’s just not possible! This is insane. I am just tired and freaking about tomorrow, it has to be stress!” He went back to the bathroom for two more sleeping pills; returning to his bed where he sat on the edge and stared out his bedroom window. The wind was picking up creating the branches outside to hit against the roof. He thought to himself again, “Calm down. State finals are tomorrow, im jus overwhelmed. It must be the stress.” He climbed back into his sheets curled up in a fetal position and rocked himself to sleep.

The visions were haunting him and he was not sure what they meant. He could hardly take the dreams and panic any longer. He knew that he needed to talk to someone. But, but he wasn’t sure who to turn to. He and Adam were still being questioned for the murder. He wasn’t comfortable talking with Adam any longer about anything. In desperation he thought that he may need to try to talk with him though. He knew he could talk to Caitlyn, but he was concerned that she wouldn’t want him to bring up the subject. He was concerned that she blamed him anyway for that night. He didn’t want Caitlyn to hate him, or think that he could have had anything to do with Steven’s death. He felt to blame for her loss and depressive sadness. He didn’t know what to think anymore. He was afraid how it may make him appear to either Adam or Caitlyn if he discussed the nightmares, flashbacks and visions. He thought that maybe they would think he was going crazy too and at worst, imply that he killed Steven. He was distraught. He wished things were so different. He wished that he could go back and relive that night over and make things right. But there was no going back now. The tides had been set in motion. All he knew is that he could no longer remain silent and harbor these nightmarish episodes.

Chapter 15 – Nor'easter Gales

November gales picked up on the lakeshore and snow began falling the first weekend of the month. The town was experiencing a premature and hasty onset of the season as the cold chill of winter was anxiously underway. This weekend the high school was celebrating the close of the football season with the team’s anticipated win at state finals. A pep rally launched the weekend’s activities on Friday afternoon.

Caitlyn was in a haze over the past month. She attended school events and carried on with her regular classes and activities, but her heart wasn’t into it. She was just existing; just going through the motions. She felt so sad and alone for such a long time now. Her thoughts were miles away in the depths of the lake waters searching for Steven; searching for some clue; some type of closure to this terrible tragedy, loss and disappearance.

As Caitlyn led the cheerleaders to the center court of the gymnasium for the pep rally; she was surprisingly caught off guard to see Jason smiling at her out of the corner of her eye. Once in position to start the cheer and rally cry, she looked over at him again. This time with a slight smile and kind glance. She remembered back to better days last spring when she first got to know Jason. He was very kind and nice to her. Now, looking at him, standing there with the football team, he wasn’t so much the football hero any longer; but just another saddened friend overtaken by the terrible events of that fateful homecoming weekend night. Everything seemed to be warped in time and emotional turmoil for all of those involved. What should have been seemingly important, such as the team going to state finals, only seemed a mere task to her and Jason now. She could see the sadness in his eyes. He had also lost something that night. Perhaps we all lost a bit of the childlike beam that used to glow brightly in our eyes out there on the pier in the darkness of the light.

The pep rally brought a nice arousal of joy and camaraderie to the students, community and Caitlyn’s friends. It was much needed to lift the spirits around town. She was happy to see everyone eagerly involved and supportive. This game weekend was the first thing she was actually looking for to in a long time. The onset of the holidays and loom of Christmas weighed heavily on her mind. She couldn’t help but think about how she and Steven anticipated a Christmas reunion when he returned from his three months of service out east on the water. Sometimes it was easier for her to think that maybe he was on duty. Maybe he would return to her someday. It was a fairy tale, but it helped her get through the most difficult days.

Following the pep rally Jason hurried down to the gymnasium floor to greet Caitlyn, “Hey Cait, it’s been a long time now. How are you?” He was short with his words and questions, but truly needed to reach out to someone. The silence he was experiencing was weighing terribly on him creating nightmares. It was clear that he, as well as Adam, still held crushes for Caitlyn. They were always enamored by her. But, this was different. He needed a friend to talk to, and he needed to talk to her! Caitlyn nodded and reflected a half-smile, but didn’t say anything back to Jason’s inquiries. Jason followed up with another question, “You thinking about going to the dance tomorrow night after the game?”

“Probably not Jason, but thank you for asking.” Caitlyn politely replied. She wasn’t planning on attending any parties, dances or extra social activities. She felt that she was not up to participate in those events yet.

Jason replied, “Cait, I’ve been thinking, it would probably be good for all of us to get out. I know that you, just as I, have been harboring a lot of thoughts and emotions and haven’t talked about what happened. I know the dance isn’t the place to do that, but it might be good to just get out and do something normal again. Please, just give it a thought? No strings attached, just friends? Okay?”

Caitlyn answered, “Well, I wasn’t planning to go, but you are right. It probably would be nice to get out after the game for a little social celebrating with our friends and classmates. I’ll think about it Jason. Thank you.” She nodded and shifted her glance to the ground again and began to walk away.

“Wait, Cait, a small group of us are heading over to Kirby Grille for some food before the dance. Will you join us for that? A girl has to eat sometime?” Jason was trying to engage Caitlyn somehow into connecting with him in some way. “Come on,” he looked at her like a lost puppy dog, “You’ll enjoy yourself. Something tells me you could use a little fun conversation and mingling, am I right? Just dinner, no dancing necessary.”

Caitlyn responded, “Yeah, you’re probably right. I have been cooped up in my house for a long time now.”

“Great!” Jason thought to himself. He wasn’t going to risk her backing out now and blurted out, “I’ll swing by and pick you up at 7:00 pm. See you then Cait!” He waived and ran off toward the boys locker room.

When Jason entered the locker room he walked in to find Adam sitting on a bench with his head cradled into his hands. He was hunched over and appeared to be in bad spirits. Steven had not talked to him since the fateful events on homecoming weekend. They were both still being questioned by local authorities regarding the outcome of that evening and Steven’s disappearance. Jason walked past him to his locker, packed up his gear in his duffle bag and slammed the locker door shut in frustration, startling Adam. Adam looked up in a panic, and caught Jason’s piercing glare as Jason walked past him and exited the locker room. There was a great deal of tension between them. They were less than team mates; just rivals now. There was a hard bitterness between them and neither one trusted the other. Their only commonality was their goal to win state football finals. Beyond that they were no longer considered friends. As Steven left the locker room, Adam pulled a flask from his jacket and drank down another swig. He was completely addicted to pain killers and alcohol now. He was harboring this secret. Their close group of friends became completely despondent with each other. The tragedies from that night on the pier created a ripple effect that remained persistent and tormented each of them individually. Come November; change was in the air, sending chills through their once close-knit circle of friends, just as the forceful circling tides impacting the shoreline.

Chapter 14 – God is Nigh

Throughout the night Caitlyn waited in silence as the great lake waves crashed ashore in constant intensity. She folded her arms, lowered and cradled her head, and whispered to herself as tears continued to stream down her cheeks, “Oh, my dear, sweet Steven, where are you? I am so worried and sad. Don’t leave me, please don’t leave me. I just found you. I love you so much. Please come back to me, please.” She was exhausted and numb. She sat there on the beach until morning light. As the day began to break, her friends, family, schoolmates, United States Coastguardsmen and members of the community began to join her there on the sand. It was a traumatic view and experience for everyone. The town shut down and the high school canceled all remaining Homecoming activities. A vigil began that morning; people brought flowers, candles, crosses and flags, and a make-shift memorial began to form there on the shoreline. Caitlyn just starred out onto the water.

The United States Coast Guard searched for Steven in the raging waters all night. They continued their search efforts that morning with additional boats and helicopters. But, by noon the search-and-rescue efforts became search-and-recovery. Caitlyn didn’t hear a word or sound from the people that gathered and milled around her on the beach. She just sat there fixated on the waters hoping and waiting for some sort of sign. She would not give up hope. She thought that Steven had to be alive, that he had to have made it to shore somehow. She made up all kinds of possible scenarios; maybe he hit his head and floated ashore but cannot figure out where he is, maybe he floated out to sea and a boater found him and picked him up, maybe he’s disoriented on the shore of the riverbanks somewhere, maybe... She continued to rethink all of the possible scenarios over and over again, and when she exhausted that subject, she continued replaying the episodes of the previous night over and over in her head. She couldn’t bring herself to face the inevitable truth.

All day and into the next evening she sat there intensely awaiting Steven’s return. In an exhausted state two days later she fell asleep on the beach. Jason came down to the beach, picked her up and carried her home. When he arrived at her house, her parents invited him in. He walked over the living room couch and laid her down gently, covered her up with blankets and sat down next to her. He watched her sleep for a few minutes, then brushed her hair off to the side of her face and kissed her on her forehead. He felt so very sad for her and so unsettled about what happened. He felt to blame too because he couldn’t get over to the side of the lighthouse in time to figure out what was happening between Adam and Steven. And he didn’t get there in time to help Steven. His heart was filled with sorrow and regret. He knew that Caitlyn would never forgive him for what happened that night.

There was a lot of speculation about the events of the night leading to Steven’s disappearance. Adam wasn’t himself and did not utter a word to anyone following that night. Both Jason and Adam were being questioned by authorities repetitively. The entire community was in disarray.

Caitlyn slept for two days straight on the couch. When she woke up, she hoped it was all a dream. But, as she looked around the room, she was faced with the reality of the night all over again. She forced herself up and made her way up the stairs to her room. She stops cold in her tracks in the door frame as she look over at her Homecoming dress lying on the bed; awaiting in anticipation, a joyful and special romantic Homecoming evening. She immediately flashes back to her plans to be with Steven that night. Tears began streaming down her face. She leaned over, scooped up the dress in her arms and embraced it raining tears into what could have been the most beautiful night of her life.

Days passed, time crawled by and hope diminished. The community gathered a week later for Steven’s memorial service. It was a full United States Coast Guard Memorial Service. But, because they never found Steven’s body, the memorial was more of a tribute; a salute to him and his family. It was such a sad time in the community. Caitlyn wore a black dress and small black veil. She couldn’t contain the tears that streamed down her face the entire day. Steven’s grand father, father and mother made a point to come over to her and share in comforting each other. They all sat quietly as the USCG lowered the United States Flag and closed Steven’s Memorial Ceremony and evening with Taps. Steven’s mother whispered the lyrics as the USCG lowered the American Flag, extinguished all lights, and everyone extended their final goodbyes. Taps was a song Steven’s mother was very familiar with being raised and encircled among the USCG military legacy. Caitlyn was sitting right beside her and could hear the sadness in her voice. That sorrow that only a mother can exuberate was apparent and hauntingly beautiful as she sang the words, “

TAPS: Signals that unauthorized lights are to be extinguished. This is the last call of the day. The call is also sounded at the completion of a military funeral ceremony.

Taps

Fading light dims the sight
And a star gems the sky, gleaming bright
From afar drawing nigh,
Falls the night.

Day is done, gone the sun
From the lakes, from the hills, from the skies
All is well, safely rest;
God is nigh.

Then goodnight, peaceful night;
Till the light of the dawn shineth bright.
God is near, do not fear,
(Love) friend, goodnight…

That day was the hardest day of Caitlyn’s life. She knew it must have been for Steven’s family also. Following the memorial events Steven’s mom walked alongside Caitlyn and said, “Dear, would you mind taking a walk with me down the peir? I would like to see the base where you and Steven used to share your afternoons. Steven told me so much about you. You were very special to him.”

Caitlyn replied, “Yes, of course. He is so special to me.” Caitlyn looked up at Steven’s mother with tears welling up and free-falling from her eyes. “I love him so much,” Caitlyn added in a quivering, confused tone.

They walked arm in arm down the catwalk to the edge of the Grand Haven Lighthouse. The waters were calm now and the sun was setting in the distance. “Well, I can see why Steven and you love this place so very much. The sky and horizon are breathtakingly beautiful. Steven loved the water so much. He told me about your plans to marry some day Caitlyn.” She turned towards Caitlyn, held her hands and looked her in the eyes, “He loved you. He planned to love you forever. I want you to have this.” She reached over and took off her wedding ring and placed it into the palm of Caitlyn’s hand. She then spoke up, “It was my mother’s and my grandmother’s before that. It has a long history of hardship and love. It’s to be yours now. Be blessed my dear girl. Hold Steven’s memory and love close to your heart. I know that this is what he would want, nothing more, and nothing less.” She reached over and hugged Caitlyn lovingly; as only a mother knows how.

Chapter 13 – Homecoming

Homecoming weekend was always a big event for Caitlyn and her friends. They participated in the pep-rally, parade and the Homecoming football game on Friday evening, and Saturday was always a day packed with time spent together as a large group. This year, Saturday would begin at noon on the beach, followed by the Homecoming dance and afterglow beach bonfire. The weather in October reached record highs so everyone was really excited about being able to take in another beach day so late in the season.

Caitlyn and Sami were cheerleaders and worked hard on designing the floats for the cheer squad and football teams for the parade. The entire community participated in the pep rally and parade. It was a great tradition in town. Homecoming was always a great time to bring the community together and rekindle the home-town Grand Haven spirit. Caitlyn sensed a lot of friction as she organized the floats and rallied the football team and cheer squad together. Lately there were a lot of seemingly harsh glares among the immediate triangle of friendship between Jason, Adam and she. She thought to herself, “Oh well, I can’t make everyone happy all of the time. And, really, I want to be happy, even if that means losing my friendships with Jason and Adam. Steven is well worth the trade.” She looked onward as the crowd gathered for the pep rally, proceeded with the parade and entered the stadium for the Homecoming football game kickoff.

This year, the star quarterback was Jason, re-placing Adam as the go-to-guy to lead us into the state finals. This was supposed to be Adam’s glory year. But when Jason moved back to Grand Haven last year, all of Adam’s hopes had been shattered for the center of the high school football spotlight.

Adam was reluctant to hang out with Caitlyn or Steven thus far into the school season. She and Adam always got along very well in the past, but Adam didn’t even try to strike up conversations with Caitlyn anymore; and he always left the conversation when she joined into any circle of communication amongst friends. Caitlyn thought it was very strange that he wasn’t making any attempts to connect with Steven over the past two months, especially since they were best friends as kids. It was obvious that Adam was trying to ignore both Steven and Caitlyn all-together. Caitlyn figured it was because of her relationship with Steven.

The game started with a roar of the crowd that filled the spectator stands when the football team ran onto the field. Adam and Jason high-five’d each other as they shot through the large banner sign. They appeared to be in good favor with each other again. Caitlyn, laughed under her breath, “Ah nothing like team camaraderie! Thank God for the little things! The last thing we need is another drunken brawl this weekend between those two.”

The game announcer introduced the homecoming court and the football team members, ending with ramblings about Jason’s ability, game statistics and career highlights. The team took the field, and Adam kicked off the initial football to start the clock. The cheer squad aligned below the grand stand to root the team on. Caitlyn looked up and spoted Steven in the stands, “There’s my guy! He made it!” She whispers under her breath and smiles up at him. Spirits run high as the Grand Haven Buccaneers take the game and Adam and Jason share their glory-day win.

“Hey, Cait! Wait up!” Sami shouts to Caitlyn from behind. “The immediate gang is heading out to the beach tonight for a bonfire, you know something small, not as big a deal as tomorrow night. You’ll come, right? It is our last Homecoming weekend! It’ll be good for our small group of friends to mingle together, like old times.” Sami works at persuading Caitlyn to go.

“Yeah, you’re right. That will be fun. And, it is our last homecoming weekend!” Caitlyn replies. Still, she can’t shake the uneasy feelings she’s been harboring between Sami, Jason and Adam and their tested friendships lately. She isn’t really sure she wants to spend time with them anymore. But, she decides to go anyway as the words of Sami echoed in her ears, “It’s our last Homecoming weekend.”

Caitlyn, Sami and Adam planned to meet up at Caitlyn’s house and then head down to the beach together. Steven had already gone down to get the fire started. And, Steven told Caitlyn he would meet her there a bit latter on. He had to check in on Coast Guard base to finish some work duties and documentation for the night.

Adam arrived and greeted Caitlyn at her door, “Hi Caitlyn.”

“Hi Adam, Sami isn’t here yet. There’s a surprise.” She tried to make a joke and some small talk. They sat down on the porch swing and awaited Sami’s arrival.

“Listen Caitlyn, we never have talked about you and Steven. I wanted to tell you, but I didn’t want you to get the wrong idea. Basically, you need to know, Steven isn’t the guy you might think he is.”

Caitlyn looked at Adam surprised by his remark, “Yeah? Why’s that?”

“He just isn’t. It’s been a long time since we were friends, people can change a lot over the years. Just think about it Caitlyn, what do you really know about this guy?” Adam continued on, “You’ll see. You and I; we have more in common then you do with him. He’ll break your heart. I don’t want to see you get hurt.”

“Adam, I am really sorry that you don’t agree with me seeing Steven. I really love him. Sure, there is a lot that I still have yet to learn about him, but I think he is a great person. We are really good together.” Caitlyn responded to Adam’s remarks in a determined response while Sami pulled up into the drive.

They made their way to the beach and joined the rest of their friends at the bonfire. Adam and Steven quickly ventured off in the distance. They claimed to be going to gather firewood, but they were probably going off to drink the pint of Jack Daniels Adam had stowed away in his jacket. Caitlyn sat by the fire with Sami. They began talking as friends and it all seemed like old times. Caitlyn was glad that she decided to come with Sami to the bonfire. They had grown so disconnected lately. After a good half hour, Adam and Steven re-appeared at the bonfire clearly intoxicated. Adam caught sight of Caitlyn and immediately walked over to her, abruptly sat down, and immediately picked up the wretched conversation they left off earlier.

“Well, Caitlyn, I still don’t see you and I as being complete over yet. You know, you gotta admit that there are still feelings between us!” Adam spouted out as he seemingly grew increasingly irritated.

“Yes, I will always care for you, but you have to move on Adam.” Caitlyn replied.

“But, we had such a great connection! I really regret seeing that go to waste Cait. I still hope that someday we can find a way to reconnect, be together again?” Adam dizzily leans over and raises his eyebrows looking up at Caitlyn.

Caitlyn pushes him away from her, “No Adam, there will never be an “us” again. I am with Steven now. And, I thought you were supposed to be his friend. You said you would do anything for him. I suppose, maybe that was just the beers talking? The thing is Adam, I am really enjoying this time with Steven. I am really happy with my life right now. I wouldn’t want anything to change.”

“Change is inevitable Cait.” Adam slurs his words and hiccups, “You never know what changes life can bring. Life can change in the blink of an eye.” Adam snide-fully replied, stood up and staggered off toward the pier.

“Good grief, why is he still so possessive and weird! Between him and Jason, who needs enemies?” She thought to herself watching Adam stumble off in the sand.

Steven showed up just in time to calm her nerves from the unsettling interaction with Adam. He sat down behind Caitlyn, pulled her in closely and wrapped his arms around her in a lover’s embrace. The bonfire was beautiful against the lights from the pier in the distance. Everyone else at the bonfire was wall-mannered, relaxing, laughing and generally having a great time. She noticed that the wind and waves picked up since they first arrived at the beach. It was also growing colder and some of the group began packing up their gear and heading home. Caitlyn began to worry about Adam being so drunk out on the pier. She spoke up, “Hey Jason, Adam went off to the pier a while ago, you know he’s pretty drunk. The waves are kicking up. Why not you go and get him, bring him back? Could you do that please? You know I worry about you guys, especially when the water stirs up like this! That, and we should all be heading back soon anyway.”

“I’ll go get him Caitlyn, don’t worry. I’ll be right back.” Steven whispered into Caitlyn’s ear and kissed her sweetly on the cheek. He stood up and started to walk towards the pier; Jason followed behind him. Caitlyn stood up, packed up some of the gear and went to the parking lot to take some supplies and extra wood back to the car. She came back to the fire and sat down anxiously awaiting Steven’s return. A half-hour passed. Caitlyn began to grow very nervous. Adam, Jason and Steven were nowhere in site or sound. She looked over at Sami, “I think I am going to head over to the pier, I don’t know what could be taking them all so long. It’s getting late and we have such a big day planned for tomorrow!”

“Don’t worry so much Cait. It’s just boys being boys, doing their stupid boy things… you know.” Sami replied.

“I know, probably, but I’m going to go anyway.” She replied back to Sami, and stood up.

“Well, wait up Cait. I’ll come with you.” Sami responded.

Caitlyn was grateful, “Thanks Sami, I appreciate it. I just have this terrible feeling in my stomach. I just haven’t been able to shake it off.”

Meanwhile, out on the end of the pier, Adam, Jason and Steven were goofing around. It all seemed like innocent fun. They downed more Jack Daniels, talked dirt about girls and jostled each other around on the catwalk. By this time, both Adam and Jason were drunk and Steven was just there to make peace, bring them back to the bonfire, and be sociable for Cait’s sake. He knew how much she wanted her friends to accept her relationship with him, so he was trying to do his part in smoothing out the fury.

“Hey guys, check it out!” Jason in his drunken stupor leans out looking over the ledge of the pier in front of the lighthouse gazing stupidly at the jagged rocks below. The water tide is breaking higher and higher now spraying them all on the pier’s edge in timed waves. “Tides coming in dudes! We should probable get back!” The next wave comes in powerfully and knocks him off balance and onto the cement base, “Whoa, that one was a pretty bad one!” He staggers closer toward the lighthouse railing and turns to head back towards shore. From the opposite side of the light he hears loud shouting just as another wave crashes down fiercely upon him and the pier. This time the wave covers the entire base of the lighthouse and it crashes so loud he can’t hear Adam and Steven. The water is really loud, and continues to beat on the pier as Jason is tries to hold on to the railing with both hands. The waves are building fast and gaining in size furiously!

From the other side of the lighthouse Steven yells out, “Noooo!”

Absolute fear and panic shoots through Jason as he tries to make his way around to the other side of the lighthouse as quickly as possible. He cannot see anything with the pace and height of the waves. He has drunken blurred vision also, and feels completely disoriented. He begins to fear for his own life. Just as he turns the corner of the lighthouse to reach the opposite side, he sees in horror Adam and Steven disappear off the ledge of the pier.

“Help! Somebody help us! Help! Someone! Two men are overboard!” Jason shouts out in shrieking panic!

Caitlyn and Sami hear Jason’s screams from the start of the boardwalk, Sami picks up the emergency phone to contact the Coast Guard. Caitlyn grabs the nearest life preserver and runs feverishly toward the end of the pier. She is struck with complete panic as she battles the waves crashing over the pier and tries to hold on to the steel boardwalk legs as she goes. She meets Jason half way along the catwalk.

“Cait! No! Turnaround now! The water and waves are too powerful. We’ve got to get off this boardwalk now! Hurry! Go back!”

Caitlyn shouts back, “No Jason, where is Steven! Where is he? Tell me!” Jason grabs her and struggles with her to get her to turn around.

“I don’t know Cait, They fell in the channel! I couldn’t see them! The water is to severe. I couldn’t see them to even jump in after them. Hurry, throw the life preservers in! But, hold on to me or you will get thrown in too!” Caitlyn threw the life preserver ring into the channel, grabbed onto Jason and ran as fast as possible to shore. There they could see the Coast Guard boats launch and begin circling the channel waters searching for Steven and Adam. The Coast Guard stopped along the north channel wall and pulled Adam into the boat, he was holding onto a ladder along the channel. But, still no sign of Steven. Caitlyn felt numb. She knew time was running out to find Steven in these cold waters and the raging undercurrent. She stared out on the waters desperately longing and waiting for a sign of hope. She keeps telling herself, “Maybe he is also holding onto the channel wall ladder, maybe he swam ashore, maybe…” She couldn’t believe what was happening. She thinks, “This is just not possible. This isn’t happening! We are going to Homecoming tomorrow! We’re supposed to be together forever. We’re supposed to get married… What is going on?” She became physically sick, filled with the most terrible gut wrenching panic raging throughout her stomach and body. She fell down on her knees in the sand and began sobbing and crying hysterically. “No! No, no, no, no!” She screamed out in wretched sadness. It was a most tragic panorama.

Chapter 12 – September’s End

Sami and Caitlyn decided to take the train to Chicago for a day of shopping. Homecoming weekend was just around the corner and they wanted to visit Filenes Basement in search of the perfect homecoming dress. Sami was keeping her plans to herself lately and Caitlyn thought this trip would help them reconnect. Caitlyn knew she wasn’t there for Sami like normal because of the time she spent with Steven.

While deeply involved scouring the racks in the dress store, Caitlyn piped up, “Sami, I cannot believe it is almost October already! The time has just been flying by. I am so excited for Homecoming weekend. This year will be such a blast! I’ve got to find the most beautiful dress! I feel like I’ve stepped into a fairytale with Steven. I want the weekend to be perfect for us.” Caitlyn gushed.

Sami was not so enthused with Steven consuming all of Caitlyn’s time. Sami spoke up in a condescending tone, “Isn’t he supposed to be going out east for his service time on the water for like, three months?”

Caitlyn, oblivious to Sami’s mistaken demeanor replied, “No, thank goodness! Not until November. I’ve got him all to myself for another whole month, and I’ll be savoring every minute! We’ve become so close and gotten so serious Sami, I really can’t believe it. I feel so blessed. I would have never thought I could be this happy. Especially last spring after Jason left. Meeting Steven made me realize the difference between a crush and being in love. It’s so weird Sami, just crazy!” Caitlyn was blushing as she browsed through the racks of gowns.

“Yeah, crazy! Just like you! I can’t wait to pick out my dress, I want something really sexy! Hehe,” Sami teased in a jealous tone, changing the subject.

Caitlyn slid into the dressing room and tried on her chosen gown. It was magical. She caressed the sides of the dress as it lay perfectly on her body and looked up into the mirror at herself in the beautiful long white dress. She almost began crying she love it so much; mostly she loved the thought of wearing it for Steven. She stepped out of the dressing room to model the dress for Sami. “So Sami, you haven’t even told me who you are going with to the Homecoming dance? I am your best friend, why don’t I know this? So, spill the secret already.” Caitlyn jokingly giggled as she once again felt the soft silky fabric of the gown against her hands.

Sami nonchalantly looked up at Caitlyn biting her lip, “Well Cait, you might not like this.” Caitlyn grew nervous and they both paused standing still in front of the three-way-mirrors outside the dressing room.

“Why’s that? Stop it Sami? What do you mean?” She playfully pushed Sami’s shoulder lightly, “Really, who are you going with?” She asked Sami again, this time with hesitation.

“I’m going with Adam. Actually, Adam and I have been seeing each other since school started, you’ve been to busy and caught up with Steven to notice.” Sami snidely replied. Caitlyn could barely catch her breath. She completely disagreed with Sami dating Adam. Sami turned away and began thumbing through the dresses again. Caitlyn then confronted Sami,

“For real?” Caitlyn grabbed Sami’s arm, turned her around and looked at her directly in the eye, “You have got to be kidding me Sami? After everything you know from my previous relationship with him; everything I’ve told you about him. He can be very hostile and condescending Sami. You should not trust him. I really don’t believe you!”

“Well, believe it Cait. I’m sorry, he asked me to the dance, and I said yes. I don’t find him to be as bad of a person as you’ve made him out to be. Besides, people change, maybe he’s changed?” Sami replied, and shrugged her shoulder.

Caitlyn was very displeased with Sami and replied in a tone of sarcasm, “Yeah, right. Well, it’s your funeral,” she shook her head and walked away delving into a rack of dresses off in another section of the store. They spent the remainder of the day relatively distant from each other; only making small talk. Caitlyn was so disappointed with Sami. She also felt a bit to blame because she had been spending all of her time with Steven. She wondered if this was some scheme made up by Adam; or even Sami. Ultimately, she felt they both had it in for her, so she decided they both probably intentionally or unintentionally joined forces in spite of her. She shivered and shook her head in discontent. She felt like her friendship with Sami was on the brink, alongside her previous friendships with Adam and Jason. Caitlyn felt as an outsider these days around her classmates in general now that she was with Steven.

When they arrived back in Grand Haven Caitlyn dropped Sami off at her house, and then headed down to the pier. It was getting pretty late, but she was upset about the notion of Sami and Adam. She wasn’t quite sure why it bothered her so much, but she knew that nothing good could come of it. The waters were pretty calm for Septembers end. She was relieved because she really needed some time to sit and think in her favorite place. As she turned the corner to the front side of the lighthouse, there was Steven. She was happily surprised and rushed to greet him, throwing her arms around his neck and then settling in to hold him close. She exhaled, “My refuge, my darling Steven!”

“Well hello my beauty!” Steven replied back with a big grin on his face. “Did you find the perfect dress? I’ve thought of you all day.”

Caitlyn replied, “Yes, but I really don’t want to talk about it. I just want to sit here with you if that’s okay. Just, sit here and take in the day’s final sunlight?”

“Of course, of course baby.” He wrapped his arms around her and held her close to his chest as they sat and watched the final September sunset.

Caitlyn rested her head on his shoulder and relished in her thoughts, “He has the smile I fell in love with and the arms I want to be held in forever.” It had been an amazing month for them both. They were right where the wanted to be; together.

Chapter 11 – Undercurrents

The September gales picked up terribly late month, creating hazardous conditions along the pier. Steven was working long hours and shifts due to the increased wave and water warnings. Late season boaters were trying to bring in their boats for winter harbor and risking their wellbeing in heightened waves and cold weather to do so. Steven was on call 24/7 and was called for rescue missions almost every day the last week in September. Caitlyn worried about him out there on the water. Boats can capsize easily when the tide changes so abruptly this time of year. The pier was a very dangerous place to be when the water gets unmanageable. It can change in a heartbeat from calm to 6 feet waves in moments. The past week was a hard week for Steven. Three boys were out on the pier when one was thrown over into the channel by a large wave. The other two boys jumped in to try and rescue their friend. Local surfers caught sight of the trouble and were able to rescue one of the boys. The other two were dragged out to deep waters in the undertow currents. It was a very tragic accident. Steven and his coastguard crew were on search and recovery duty all week. Caitlyn could tell how terrible this incident impacted Steven.

Meanwhile, Caitlyn was having her own trials that week at school. Jason went out of his way to avoid Caitlyn. He was angry at her for blowing him off at the kiteboarding competition. Later on that following weekend, Adam threw another one of his standard weekend parties. Jason was there drunk and disorderly. And after he was fully intoxicated he decided to confront Caitlyn. “Cait!” He wobbled over to her, “I’m really disappointed in you. Why didn’t you stop by to see me at the kiteboard competition? I know you were there, I saw you with your Mr. Coastie.” Jason slurred his words and rolled his eyes. “You know I’ve come to really like you Cait. I count on you. I’m so pissed! I was really looking forward to coming back this fall and having fun hanging out with ya, ya know? I mean seriously? A coastie? Cait, when I told you that our friendship was really important to me… I wasn’t lying or trying to feed you a line of bullshit. And, I just can’t imagine that this new dude you’ve picked up is any good for you—or any better than I am for you—you really didn’t give us a chance!" Steven walks out onto the porch where Jason is talking at Caitlyn in a heated discussion. “Well speak of the devil, there’s your beloved Stevie… asshole more like it!” Jason rudely remarks. Jason had been drinking like a freshman frat boy since five o’clock that afternoon prior to the party. Needless to say, now at 9:30 pm he’s had enough intoxicated ammo to pick a slew of fights.

“How convenient, that this is when I finally get the opportunity to introduce Steven to Jason. Steven will never understand my friendship with Jason now.” She thinks to herself and shakes her head in disbelief.

Jason decides to poke at Steven, “So, you think you’re good enough for her? You patriotic types, you all think your better then everyone. You know you’re not good enough for her! You should just leave her alone! Why don't you get out of here and go back to your boat?” Jason waves his arm in the air as if to shun Steven off, then stumbles as he tries to adjust his stance. Caitlyn tensed up. She knew what a difficult week it was for Steven. He was a truly hard worker and Jason had no idea how much Steven had witnessed and done to help people in the brutal waters. She was completely unnerved.

Caitlyn steps in and abruptly addressed Jason, “Jason! That is enough!” she shouted. “You are being so rude, just stop it!” She turns toward Steven and focuses her attention on him. “I’m so sorry Steven; Jason’s been drinking too much for too long tonight.” Please Steven, please just ignore him and let him be. I’m sorry he is acting this way. I don’t know where this is coming from. Believe me, there is nothing going on between us to justify his behavior.” Steven is not amused and Caitlyn can tell by the intense look on his face that it is time they leave the party; Steven turns around to exit. She grabs his hand, “No wait, I’ll go with you! Don’t leave me, please?” She then turns toward Jason and snidely snipes at him, “You have no idea what it takes to be like Steven in the Coast Guard! And you know very well how I feel about Steven! If you were any kind of friend at all to me you wouldn’t be acting so childish Jason! Neither you, nor anyone else is going to change the way I feel about him.” Then she throws a snarling glare towards Adam who has now entered the scene. Through flying rumors at school, she knows that Adam has been talking down about Steven and her relationship with him. She turns back toward Steven and pleads, “Steven, please don’t let this bother you. And please don’t ever leave me? Let’s get out of here. I want to go home.” She and Steven leave the party together. “So much for back to school fun,” she says under her breath as she walks away with Steven disappointed that the evening has been so discerning.

They arrived at Caitlyn’s house, and she invited Steven in. They sat close together in front of the fireplace in the family room. Caitlyn’s parents were out for the evening with friends, so the house was quiet and calm, a nice change from the party atmosphere they just exited. Caitlyn speak up, “Steven, I am really sorry for Jason’s behavior. I don’t know what got into him tonight. I would have never invited you to join me for the party if I had any idea he was going to behave like that. I hope you know that. I thought it would be a good way for us to unwind after such a hard week. And, I really wanted some of my good friends to meet you, including Jason. But, I guess that was a mistake. You mean so much to me. And now, it doesn’t matter if they meet you, or like you. I love you. That is all that matters to me.” She smiled at him, and he leaned over and kissed her.

“It’s okay Caitlyn; I only wanted to be there for you.” Steven reassured her. She then perked up.

“Well, I’ve got a little something I’ve been waiting to give to you. And now is as good of time as ever.” Caitlyn smiled and flashed Steven a look of mischief. “Stay right there. I need to go get it from my room! Oh, I can’t wait to show you!” Caitlyn ran up the stairs and returned with a small wooden box. “Here is something I made just for you Steven. It’s something special I wanted to give to you; for those days when you are out on duty, out on the water over the next three months. I thought you could look at it and think of me. Open it!”

Steven opened the box, inside was a beautiful pendant Caitlyn designed and worked with the local jeweler to produce. It was a beautiful gold and silver pendant set in a Yin-Yang design. She went on to explain, “See, the waves symbolize the indication of water and undercurrent; how the waters can be forceful and beautiful. You are the person who helps to keep people out of harms way in the midst of these currents. You are the one who brings balance through your service. I thought tonight would be a good night for you to have it. I know you won’t be going out on the cutter until November, but I thought with all of the events that took place this week; this might be a bit of a healing piece for you.” He swallowed deep. He was taken back by it. It was remarkable. “I love you, and I want you to know how much I admire what you stand for and what you do.” Steven grew quiet. “Well, turn it over!” Caitlyn excitedly pronounced. On the reverse side of the pendent were the words inscribed, “Forever Yours, Caitlyn” Steven could not even get words to come out of his mouth. He began to tear up but, he didn’t cry because he didn’t want Caitlyn to see his soft exterior.

He looked at her intently and said, “Caitlyn, this is the most wonderful gift I have ever received. I love you so very much. I can’t believe you designed this. It is amazing! Thank you!” He grabbed her and hugged her tightly. Caitlyn then picked up the pendent and placed it around Steven’s head. She tucked the pendant into his shirt, placed her hand on his heart directly over the pendant and sweetly kissed him. Steven was over the moon.

Chapter Ten – The Promise

Caitlyn and Steven met every afternoon at the base of the lighthouse throughout the entire month of September. It became “their” special place; their private place only they knew where to find each other every day. That September was unseasonably warm in Michigan. It was quiet and the waters were calm for the majority of the month. Steven and Caitlyn were glad for the warm and calm waters, because it gave them time to spend together there, in their spot, a nook of the world they claimed their own – somewhere only they knew. None of their friends knew they escaped there every day. It became a safe haven for them, a place they could always go to escape when things got hard, confusing or when they needed to just be alone, away from everything. They loved it mostly because it was their escape to be together; their time to be wrapped in each others embrace, thoughts and hearts.

The second weekend of September always marked the annual West Michigan Kite Festival. It was a fun and brilliantly colorful weekend in Grand Haven. Kite enthusiasts, collectors and kiteboarders traveled from all around the country to attend and participate in the weekend’s activities. This weekend was very sunny and the wind picked up with the September gales as usual, making it perfect for kiting.

The variety of kites festooned the skyline along the lighthouse pier with fun shapes and colors in all sizes of directional flying mechanisms. Steven anxiously awaited Caitlyn’s arrival at the local kite shop in town. They’d planned to spend the day kiting in at the beach, so they were meeting there to pick out kites and grab lunch at one of their favorite local restaurants, The Rosebud.

“Steven,” Caitlyn shouted as she headed across the street, meeting him in a large hug embrace! “What a perfect day!” she was beaming. Her hop and step a little more jubilant than normal. She just came from the local jeweler in town, where she was planning an exciting surprise for Steven.

They entered The Mackinac Kite Co. store, picked out two kites for the day, and then went next door for lunch at The Rosebud. During their conversation Caitlyn spoke up, “Oh, Steven, we have to make sure we go and watch Jason in the King of the Great Lakes Kiteboarding competition. He is really excited about it this year. I told him we would take pictures of him too.” She began going on and on about Jason and his kiteboarding experience. Steven grew irritated with her excitement and interest in the whole idea, especially due to her past friendship with Jason.

“Caitlyn, when did you talk with Jason about the kiteboarding competition? Why do you have to take pictures for him? I am sure he has plenty of groupies who would gladly help him with his vanity shots and surfing hobby!” He was a bit harsh talking back at Caitlyn. “I’ve got other plans for us, I don’t want to waste a bunch of time watching Jason.” Caitlyn sensed jealous tension coming from Steven.

“Alright Steven, It’s not a big deal, really. He just mentioned it in math class, I only offered to take pictures as a nice gesture and as his friend. You know we are still friends. And we do have several classes together. But, hey, it’s really no big deal.” She shook her head as to brush the conversation off. “It’s not like he is expecting me to show up there to meet him.” She smiled softly back at Steven. Inside, she was a bit tickled to see his jealous side. “Let’s just have fun with our kites, and let the day take us where we want it to go.”

“Okay, sounds good.” Steven let out a sigh of relief. He too had been anticipating that afternoon with a surprise in mind for Caitlyn. He felt a little nervous and on edge. But, deep inside, he was not at all happy about the underlying friendship between Jason and Caitlyn. He wasn’t a student at there school, so he felt like an outsider and wished he could be Caitlyn more to see the interaction. He often worried about it at times.

They made their way down to the beach, launched their kites and enjoyed the afternoon amidst the flying contraptions hovering overhead. They found a nice spot on the beach, sat down and a blanket and enjoyed each other’s company. Jason spotted them across the beach as he made his way to launch his kite for the kiteboarding competition. He turned his head away immediately in discouragement and disappointment when he witnessed them kissing and laughing close with each other. He furrowed his brow and proceeded to put all of his frustration into the competition at hand. It bothered him that Caitlyn didn’t even come over to say hello before the start of the event.

The afternoon flew by. Steven and Caitlyn were completely encompassed in each other, and never even noticed the kiteboarding competition underway, drawing to an end. Then, as routine, they packed their belongings and walked along the pier to find their place at the lighthouse base. It was a welcomed comfort to be there together. Sitting at the base of the light now, wrapped in a blanket. The early evenings were growing much colder as September carried on.

“Caitlyn, I have something I want to ask you.” Steven spoke up as they both fixated their eyes on the sun setting off in the distance.

“Of course Steven, what is it?” She replied back.

Steven pulled a small box from his jacket and placed it into Caitlyn’s hands. “I know this may seem strange. Well,” he paused a moment, “Why don’t you just open it.” Caitlyn looked at Steven with much surprise and a bit of confusion. She slowly opened to box to reveal the most stunning stone set in a beautiful ring of diamonds.

“Steven?” She gasped for air, “This is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.” She looked at him in surprise and complete happiness.

Steven smiled back at her, “It is a blue star sapphire, a rare stone.* When I saw it, I immediately thought of you. But then, I am always thinking of you.” He smiled at her with a bit of shyness. Caitlyn smiled joyfully back. “Listen, I know this may seem strange and really fast.” He paused again and looked out on to the sun setting in the distance, then looked back at Caitlyn intensely, “Caitlyn, you are a rare gem too, and I wondered if you could picture us married some day? I know this sounds crazy, and it is, and I know we are young, but…”

“Steven, are you asking me…” she interrupted and began to ask him a question in a confused undertone. Then, before she could even get a complete sentence out he interrupted her.

“Yes, I want you to be my wife. You know… maybe, someday? Would you ever think to consider me your husband?” He asked her in complete sincerity.

Caitlyn began to tear up, and just as her tears began streaming down her cheeks in happiness she replied, “Yes Steven, a thousand times, yes!”

He hugged her tight, looked her close in the eyes and asked her, “Will you wear this ring as my promise to you; my promise to marry you one day? I love you so much Caitlyn.” Steven looked at her intently, moved his head side to side and gushed with smiles as he glanced over her beautiful face, lips, nose and eyes in complete admiration. “Will you marry me?”

“Yes!” she hugged him as close as possible, “Yes, yes, yes! There is nothing in this world I want more than to be married to you. I love you my Steven!”

The moment was perfect. Steven placed the ring on her left ring finger. The star sapphire ring surrounded in a wave pattern of diamonds shined brightly in the brilliant reflections of the sunset bouncing off of the Lake Michigan waters below.

* Genuine Blue Star Sapphire Ring Enclosed with Wave Diamonds Pattern set in White Gold; Design: Copyright J. Marshon